The small but effective act of rebellion
I was a senior in high school when I got my first and only detention. I had forgotten my textbook for a class one day, and, though the teacher had been repeatedly lenient with other students, he decided to punish me.
I won’t make any assumptions about what made the teacher give me a detention. It could have been that he didn’t like me or that he was having a bad day. It could have been any number of things.
The problem was that I was one of the few kids in the class who understood the coursework. We were supposed to be learning Biblical Greek, but day after day the class time would drag as the teacher asked question after question that no one could answer (I guess the other students weren’t as interested in becoming Indiana Jones as I was). When he was tired of calling on people who failed to respond correctly, the teacher would call on me so that we could continue with the day’s lesson.
I was keeping that class moving, and the teacher gave me a detention.
from my high school photography portfolio
In high school, I was a good kid and I got good grades. I stayed out of trouble and expected my math teachers to ignore the fact that I was reading novels during class since I always did well on quizzes. I had intended to graduate without a detention and I wasn’t about to let the injustice of this one go unremarked.
That said, in the last few years, I had figured out that high school was a game, and I was beginning to suspect that adult society was one too. I wasn’t going to lose the game—I wasn’t going to do anything to endanger my grade in the class—but I was going to get even.
The next time the class was flailing, the teacher called on me to get the right answer and keep things moving. Instead of doing as I was expected, I responded pointedly with “I don’t know.” My heart was racing: I had never openly defied an authority figure. The teacher didn’t get it right away, but I only had to answer in this manner one or two more times before my mutiny registered with him and he stopped looking to me to get through the coursework.
It was brilliant…except that the class stopped going anywhere and I never did learn much more Greek (or grow up to be an archaeologist).
from my high school photography portfolio
In the years since high school, I’m not sure I’ve mastered the small but effective act of rebellion. It’s a delicate art, striking out on one’s own without shooting oneself in the foot, and I’m guessing it will take a lifetime to refine the required skills.
That said, with this first taste of subversion, I did learn one important lesson. Other people and society as a whole may have power over us, but only insomuch as we let them. And, while we may have to stay within society’s lines in order to reap its benefits and rewards, there’s no reason to allow anyone else pretend as though they can tell us how the game has to be played. As long we keep within certain broad boundaries, we’re each qualified to make our own way if we can find the courage to do so.
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(4) Comments / Commentaires: The small but effective act of rebellion
Now I want to know what you got your detention for! I hope it was something worthwhile anyway… 
I wonder how many of us have just one annoying detention that nags our perfect record of good-girl. Mine was for writing on a desk that was already covered with teen scrawl. No… I didn’t write on it, yes I cleaned all the desks in the room that evening. No, I haven’t grown up enough some 30 years later to forgive the little runt of a teacher who also thought someone else drew the picture of the Monitor for my paper.
I think that in order to teach high school well you have to be impervious to angsty emotional roller-coastering. Too bad too many teachers don’t qualify!
Jenn...
Gwenn,
Beautiful post. Amazing photos.
I love when subtle action, simple actions teach life lessons, such as your rebellion. I was also a good girl (just one detention in high school too, actually). I’d call that skill, absolutely.
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